A Saint's Prayer

 Father,

I have prayed before, and before, and before;

Sometimes it seems you don’t care or at least won’t listen.

I feel badly about feeling that way,

But at least I am trying to be honest!

I am tired of all the nothingness that fills my life.

Others around me talk of excitement, joy, and overcoming victory,

While I seem caught in a tailspin of despair.

Is it ever going to change?

Are you working all things for my good?

Are you conforming me to the image of Jesus Christ?

You have promised to do so. I want it to be so!

Are all of these things around me here by your design?

Am I just slow to learn your purpose?

Am I waiting on you? Or are you waiting on me?

I don’t want to play this cosmic game.

I want to be wholly, totally, unconditionally yours.

Pleas continue to do what it take so to bring me there.

© Weaver 1980